Senior frenzy is almost over. For the last two months I have been shooting about 6 seniors a week. That is a lot for my little studio and one man show. I'm so grateful for the work and pray for more work to come my way but also I'm grateful for this little break. I don't have any seniors scheduled for the next two weeks. I'm glad to be able to focus on my own high school senior who is graduating in just a few days.
What an amazing journey these kids take. As a adult, I can look back and offer words of wisdom but really do they listen? Did I listen 20 (cough) years ago? Sure I gave eye contact when these words of wisdom were spoken to me, sure I appeared to be listening but really I was bigger than the world and nothing could touch me. Or so I thought.
I didn't have big plans for continuing my education. I wanted to go to New York Institute of Photography, I thought about going to Okmulgee Tech and continuing my education in graphic arts technology. Then I met Mr. Brian Madden and I couldn't think about anything else but him. Oh young love. Totally messes with us doesn't it?
I'm proud to say that my son, Austin, has big plans after graduation. We have toured the Stillwater OSU Campus and he's very excited to be going there in August and plans to pursue a degree in Mechanical Engineering. I wish I could tell him my words of wisdom and they somehow sink into his little soul and he never forgets them, that somehow I can tell him the things I want him to know to protect him from the hurts I've had in my life. If only.
You can be book smart, even know all of your states and capitals AND your multiplication tables (I know neither of these without google and a calculator) But life experiences teaches us so much. Life teaches us that it's okay to try something as long as you try your best. It's okay to fail at that trial, it doesn't mean you are a failure it means try something else. It's okay to love someone more than they love you, it's okay to cry, okay to be mad, okay to confront mean people. Eventually you learn to stand up for what you believe in, even when your the only one in the room who believes it. You learn it's okay that some people thing your wrong, as long as your living your life the best you can that's what counts.
If I could project some sort of wisdom onto my son it would be these few things.
- Learn to accept conviction.
- Without Jesus nothing is possible. That statement is exclusive and I realize the politically correct thing is to not be exclusive, but make a stand, speak your mind.
- Don't hesitate to do good, just do it.
- When you decide to love someone, respect them even more than you love them.
- When your faced with a crisis, how you react in that crisis is character telling. Stay calm. First and always pray.
- Live with in your means. Force yourself to budget and ask yourself with every purchase is this a want or a need? Never spend more than you make, stay away from credit cards and always put at least $10 in savings even when your broke.
- Most of all, life your live with your heart wide open. Hold nothing back, live a creative life full of possibility and dreams.
So this is for my baby boy. Being your Mama has been one of the biggest joys in my life. Also has been the most challenging thing I have ever done. You were not an easy toddler. Hard headed and almost un-trainable. Somehow by the grace of God we got through it and your daddy and I are so proud of the man you've become.
"While your out there gettin where your gettin to, I hope you know somebody loves you.."




